OK so here comes a rant. I mean a rut. I am stuck in a life rut. I feel like I am drowning. Everyday I get up and I go through the motions of life, but each day I look back at what I accomplished and I find myself seriously lacking. Then I got to thinking and I decided that my problem is that I don't have any goals. I don't know where I am going and what I want to accomplish. I need some new goals. I also decided that I need a hobby. I have been wasting my days away in front of the TV and I am tired of it. I want to stop watching other people live and start living again myself. I also need a job only I can't think of a job that I can do and still stay home with Sammie and also be able to spend time with Von. I have thought about starting a day care out of my home and try watching kids, but I do not even know where to start. So if anyone knows of anyone who needs a babysitter or of any job that I can do from home please let me know. I am in need of some help. It is at times like these that I wish I had some family around. Living so far from everyone is really hard sometimes. I am sorry if this is a negative post, but I just needed to get it all out. Thanks for reading!
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Ok Jess how you are feeling is totally normal at least for me it is. It is nice to stay home with your kids but sometimes it sucks because you feel bored and like you are missing out on life a little. The whole photography thing has gotten me out of that rut for the most part although I still have my days. I think you should do a part time preschool. I think you are perfect for it since you already have a teaching degree. You could do it twice a week from like 9:00 to noon or something. Just get a handful of kids to do it and then you can make lesson plans and plan activities. It would keep you busy but not too busy. I don't know if this interests you or not but I thought of it because there used to be someone here that did it but moved and now I wish they were here since I am trying to get Arlie into preschool now. Hope this helps. Give me a call sometime. How are you doing with weight watchers?
I'm with Tiff. You would be perfect for a preschool teacher and I'm sure it would bring in more cash than a daycare (maybe??). Talk to Katie Larsen she has her basement set up for a preschool and she did it last year, I'm not sure if she is still doing it but she could give you some tips. It's hard to be away from family and friends, I feel a little lost in my own little world sometimes to. Thats why I started doing half marathons I needed to GET OUT and get some fresh air...ahhhh it feels good =0) (well not so much the running as the air) I bet is was so hard not to be teaching this year, good luck girl!!
I agree that a part time pre-school (something that doesn't consume your whole life) would be great!! Sometimes (ok all the times) I worry that I'll lose myself when my kid shows up (4 more weeks)! But remember sometimes when you are feeling down and out-- you need to stick your hand out to someone else- Help someone else -- and you'll feel better all around!
Life can be fun for a little while without direction, but it gets old fast. I agree with Tiff that you should look into a preschool. My mom did that for ten years in our home. She did 2 hours, three days a week. So it's not too much time, and you don't have to worry about daycare things like changing diapers and providing meals.
If you're crafty you can also pick up a crafty hobby making things to sell on etsy or ebay.
If you're into writing, look into writing freelance for websites or magazines.
Or you could always learn photography and start a photography business.
Etsy and photography are big here - every other person does it. But get away from Idaho/Utah and you'll be unique where you're at in Nevada.
All these comments are great, as moms we have all been where you are right now. A preschool would be awesome and something you would be great at. As far as a hobby, I think everyone should have one. I know my little hobbies help me keep my sanity! If you need anything, please call me! I know how you feel about the whole family being far away...
I agree with all of the above! Because you already have that teaching degree preschool would be great for you and it wouldn't be ALL day and then you would still have energy for your darling Sammie. I know a lady in my ward is charging 80 bucks a month per kid for two days a week for about two hours I think. Talk to people in your neighborhood and ward and make sure they know your credentials. I'm with Chy. Running has changed my life. At first it's really not fun but after two years I've started to crave it. Start out slow and build up your mileage...there's no need to do a a half marathon (although it's a great goal) but just a couple miles a day might just be the ticket for you.
I'm sorry you are feeling so stuck. I'm afraid every mother has felt the same, it's just a matter of how we choose to make our situation better for us and that little bundle of joy. Keep us all posted on how you are feeling!
I agree with all of the above... Jess you would be good at anything you put your mind to. but for sure you are amazing with kids. If you ever want to be a guest speaker and do a little lesson with my class that would be super fun! I'll always keep you posted with stuff we're doing at TW cuz I miss you terribly there and I know everyone else does too! Love you dear!
Good for you girlie! I am sorry to hear that you have been sort of dragging! If you ever need to chat I hope you feel comfortable to call or come over and vent. Life is hard-I agree. Somedays I think I need to go see a therapist or something. I know you aren't to that point, but everyone goes through it. Good luck on your goals! ~Amber
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